Guess what I got today! OK, don't really guess. I got an official copy of my transcript. The news contained, while not great, was actually better than I'd expected. My last two semesters didn't count at all (Fall because I got a "trauma drop" of all my classes because of the bus accident...and I think I would've failed them all anyway, and Spring because my Dad never paid the tuition and I was never officially enrolled in any classes). Financially that sucked, but it's a lucky break because I don't have two straight semesters of F's on there. Even with that "good" news, I still left with a pretty dismal 2.2 GPA, and only 82 credits completed.
But the transcript provided some good laughs for Scott and me this afternoon. I mean, I don't remember taking Arthurian Legend (D) or Astronomy (B-), but apparently I did. I vaguely remember Genetics, Ecology and Evolution (B), which was basically a re-hash of AP Bio. Scott was dismayed to learn that I got a D in Criminology, but I did get a B+ in Intro to American Criminal Justice 2 years earlier (which I also don't remember). Honors Freshman Comp? B+ Three semesters of Italian? C, C+, C+. My proudest semester was the last one I passed: Summer of '99, when I got a B+ and an A in two 400-level communications classes and an A- in nutrition.
Mostly, looking at the transcript just makes me sad. My priorities were never what they should have been, and that I passed any classes at all after my Freshman year shows how damn smart I was, because I almost never went. And having taken 11 years to dig out of the financial catastrophuck I left behind, I wish that I could go back and smack some sense into my 18-year-old self and also go back and (while not blaming them) tell my parents to force me to show them my grades at the end of the semester.
But that's enough of looking backwards. I'm keeping my fingers crossed that I'll be able to start taking classes again in January, though thinking about it for more than two minutes at a time makes me nauseous. I'm hoping that the re-applying process is quick and painless so that I can actually make plans (and find out how much more I have to go) instead of this purgatory I'm in now.